bored
Ok found this thing and its a kinda lame yet fun way to waste some time. Check it out if u feel like it
http://anand987.mybrute.com
http://anand987.mybrute.com
4.19.2009
4.8.2009
With the chances of me staying in berlin rapidly disintegrating I find myself in this familiar emotional state. I felt this way towards the end of my stay in London as well. I think its best described as a loss of enthusiasm for life. I find myself finding it hard to be motivated to do anything associated with a future in Berlin. I constantly am asking myself can I be bothered? More often than not the answer is no. This probably is one of the unfortunate traits of my being. On my own I will internalise, somewhat living in my own mind without regard for the outside world. People be key to preventing this from ahppening and in my current state I am hardly motivated to make contact. I fear this is going to be a shitty next few months.
London was a better situation. I will always miss the concept of flatmates. In my flatamtes I had people who would more often than not drag me into the kitchen or the pub be it to sit and chat or have a drink. Here I need to make contact but instead I am slowly but surely am retracting into my shell.
London was a better situation. I will always miss the concept of flatmates. In my flatamtes I had people who would more often than not drag me into the kitchen or the pub be it to sit and chat or have a drink. Here I need to make contact but instead I am slowly but surely am retracting into my shell.
3.16.2009
Animal reseach rant
One inevitable truth should I successfully find myself a career in science.... more accurately in the field of science I am passionate about is that I will eventually sacrifice animals for experiments. It is an inevitable truth I do not particularly enjoy that much but I find myself too passionately involved in the quest to answer the question that intrigue me to give up on answering them. I am occasionally given stick for this fact, for the fact that I choose to give more importance to an experiment than to a life of an animal. I do accept that there is a moral dubiousness to it but at this point of time I still say that my questions come first.
I am glad that for some of you out there interested in science, you can be passionately interested in questions that do not involve animals. I for a number of reasons am not interested in imaging, nor am I overly excited by the questions you can ask working with humans. Unfortunately this form of research does not intrigue me, inspire me. I even respect the decision of those who decide to quit research because they find animal research beyond them. To these people though, I say they were never passionately involved with the question they were asking. I respect their decision but I do not believe I or any of my fellow animal researchers should be considered any lesser for the fact their interest, their passion for their question allows them this moral dubiousness. I think its a bigger statement against the former that they could never find themselves being passionate enough about a question.
To these people, I judge you for your inability to stick around and perhaps treat these animals better than those out there who indeed do not care for the welfare of animals. The people whom may you allow to design bad and useless experiments that will not address any question properly. You could have saved more animals if you would be more involved! I know that animals are wasted due to bad research. I know there are people who are inclined to do very dubious experiments, likely to neglect the safety and welfare of animals for the sake of a publication. I say get involved. Do the experiments the right way so that these people have no reason to do it the wrong way. If there is nothing to publish about then animals wont be wasted on bad research. Animals would be much safer for it if the people doing the research truly cared for their welfare. Your non involvement is not to the benefit of the animals but more to their detriment.
I find such hypocrisy in people who judge animal research when they willfully use animal products. Yes perhaps some of these people may not eat meat, but they eat milk products, eggs etc. Yes perhaps they may choose to buy bio meat, free range eggs etc but I ask these people, isnt an animal sacrificed to give you that meat, are those free range chicken kept around when the lay no more eggs, are those cows and goats kept around when they do not produce milk. These animals are sacrificed/culled to feed your desire for a specific type of food for a specific taste. Which is less morally dubious to condone the sacrifice/culling of an animal for your desire for food versus the same action to answer a question, which perhaps would lead to the betterment of man kind.
I accept that the vegans out there do have a moral highground to which they may indeed judge me and my fellow animal researchers. But to the rest of you, get a grip.
I am glad that for some of you out there interested in science, you can be passionately interested in questions that do not involve animals. I for a number of reasons am not interested in imaging, nor am I overly excited by the questions you can ask working with humans. Unfortunately this form of research does not intrigue me, inspire me. I even respect the decision of those who decide to quit research because they find animal research beyond them. To these people though, I say they were never passionately involved with the question they were asking. I respect their decision but I do not believe I or any of my fellow animal researchers should be considered any lesser for the fact their interest, their passion for their question allows them this moral dubiousness. I think its a bigger statement against the former that they could never find themselves being passionate enough about a question.
To these people, I judge you for your inability to stick around and perhaps treat these animals better than those out there who indeed do not care for the welfare of animals. The people whom may you allow to design bad and useless experiments that will not address any question properly. You could have saved more animals if you would be more involved! I know that animals are wasted due to bad research. I know there are people who are inclined to do very dubious experiments, likely to neglect the safety and welfare of animals for the sake of a publication. I say get involved. Do the experiments the right way so that these people have no reason to do it the wrong way. If there is nothing to publish about then animals wont be wasted on bad research. Animals would be much safer for it if the people doing the research truly cared for their welfare. Your non involvement is not to the benefit of the animals but more to their detriment.
I find such hypocrisy in people who judge animal research when they willfully use animal products. Yes perhaps some of these people may not eat meat, but they eat milk products, eggs etc. Yes perhaps they may choose to buy bio meat, free range eggs etc but I ask these people, isnt an animal sacrificed to give you that meat, are those free range chicken kept around when the lay no more eggs, are those cows and goats kept around when they do not produce milk. These animals are sacrificed/culled to feed your desire for a specific type of food for a specific taste. Which is less morally dubious to condone the sacrifice/culling of an animal for your desire for food versus the same action to answer a question, which perhaps would lead to the betterment of man kind.
I accept that the vegans out there do have a moral highground to which they may indeed judge me and my fellow animal researchers. But to the rest of you, get a grip.
3.6.2009
Exposed
I have long hidden myself behind layer an layer of protection. Only recently have I experienced how liberating it is to expose oneself to another. Unfortuantely life chose to torture me this time with a person would never appreciate this the way I do. I now roam the land looking, waiting for someone to see me, the true me again. I roam the world looking for the person that may complete me.
8.1.2008
Alamak???!!!
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